a game called TRIP TO EUROPE

"i didn't have second thoughts of not going to the trip, it's a once in a lifetime chance and since i'm still young and able, i will grab it. europe has been my dream since i was young. maybe i was just too fortunate that i can go there without any worries at all. in a few hours i will be now boarding the plane, everything is already fine, ofcourse i won't forget to bring my digicam, plus my cellphone which i just applied in globe so i could send messages to my family and friends. im pretty much excited now, if you could only hold me now, you can tell that i am shaking. if i could only drag my house, i would. here i come europe see you later."

the flat water

"the best form of flattery is imitation."

translate my existence

"the best feeling you can get is the passion of helping other people, making a difference is a long virtue thats needs patience, and commitment. time is also an issue, not all can give time but atleast sharing a little moment can already change ones person's life, that's what i think the real essence of our existence"

kritiko-legal

"i love compliments but i rather have criticisms for i am after self-reconstruction and improvements, i don't intend to be perfect but to be better every single day."

the price of it

"it's so easy to get into a relationship but the hardest part is how you could make it last."

jeepney

"i was made in UP, i am made up of automatic humor, aggressive freedom, and amphibious ideas. i am from UP, i am free, i am an image of a jeepney with loads of intellectual stimulating individuals fighting for their rights, our rights. i am from UP, starting my journey."

bubbles from the toothpaste

"i made a short story back in 2002, my professors in UP-DILIMAN really loved it."


I am Bubbles. Tulad ng aking pangalan ay transparent ako. I don’t mind what other people think of me as long as I am happy. Sabi ng iba I’m a very extra-ordinary girl and for the record na-experience ang kumain ng beta max with matching Tabasco sauce saka uminom ng itlog with sarsi when I was in 5th grade. From then on, na hook na ako sa kalye. All my batch mates sa highschool thinks im so rebellious but I guess its all in the mind.
Im proud to say im seeing a special yet mature one right now, ang totoo none of my friends even my folks have seen it. Siguro di lang nila napapansin kasi di pa naman nila nakikita. I don’t care kung drop dead gorgeous or hindi. I could say na medyo typical ang looks pero may face value. Di naman sa kinahihiya ko ang aking so called “special one” problema nga lang his shorter than me.
“Bubbles, malaman laman lang namin na may boyfriend ka, lintik lang ang walang ganti.” sabi ng Mommy.
Even if I really didn’t understand what she said sa huling statement I don’t really care. Basta ang alam ko im in the right track.
When I first got into college, sa interview ko sa guidance office, I was asked to go to a Psychiatrist. Magpa-test daw ako, I was afraid to know why I need to do it.
“No it’s ok, don’t think you have problems in mind. I don’t want to imply anything. It’s just a test, After all, di lang naman ikaw ang pinapapunta ko.” sabi ng Doc
Hindi ko alam kong seseryosohin ko ang sinabi ng doctor, pampalubag loob lang ang sinabi niyang di lang naman daw ako ang pinapapunta niya. Basta la naman siguro masama if I go there.
TEST.SESSION.TEST.RELAX.EVALUATION.
I got the result, malinaw pa sa buwan, negative ako sa possibility of insanity. Now, I became more confident. Ofcourse taas noo ako sa guidance office. May tendencies daw akong kumausap ng mga non-living things or mga hayop. Effect daw un ng sobrang creativity.
Back to my love life, di ko pa kayang iwan ito.
“Your’e my 1st love. Alam mo, you made complete. You put the smile on my face at lagi ako confidently fresh.” sabi sa sarili ko.
August 6, 2001. My 15th birthday. I received something so timely and I loved it. Plus the fact na wala na ang mga braces ko. Di nako mukhang “geek”.
SCHOOL.BAHAY.TELEPHONE.
Basic routine ko sa pang araw-araw.
August 6, 2004 na bukas. Naku turning 4 years na since my special one arrived in my life. Saka na ako magdedecide pag 18 nako. Bukas na yun. Ang debut ko; Simple lang, garden party ang concept at dapat lahat ng guest naka pang superhero ang attire.
EXCITED.SCARED.HAPPY.
Bakit kaya I have this strangest feeling na may mangyayaring iba bukas? I think I should let go na siguro I’ll take my mom’s advice, to learn new things, to experience new things as long as mabuti ito.
“Anak, you should be in bed right now, mapupuyat ka niyan, saka ba’t andito ka sa C.R? naku Bubbles, ilang beses ko bang sasabihin sayo na itapon mo na yan!” Mom told me.
“Ummm ayoko nga..i mean I’ll think about it.” I said.
Kinabukasan, handa na ang lahat. I was having this very emotional moment, well again in the same venue sa banyo. Medyo life size ang mirror so andun din ako. Habang nakatingin ako sa salamin, napansin ko ang aking reflection, im pretty pala. Pero behind that idea naalala ko ang una kong pag punta sa Batasan para umattend ng rally, ng mamatayan ako ng aso na I almost faint ng aking malaman at lastly, ang 15th birthday ko. Biglang tumulo ang aking luha, tulo talaga. My parents caught me in that situation. They invited me to go down and entertain our guest, my guest, my night.
Parang the whole evening wraps me with mixed feelings. Loneliness and happiness in the canopy of stars. Feeling ko I am like a fish riding on a merry go round. Paulit-ulit. Papalit-palit. Kulang na lang alisin ang hasa ko.
Gift opening. A very similar box with a very similar wrapping from a very similar person caught my attention from the rest. I took it and went upstairs straight ahead sa aking sanctuary, the C.R.
Ni-locked ko ang door baka mahuli na naman ako ng mommy pero I have a different agenda now. Cinematic. Im with my old and new momories. Kami lang ang mga elements dito. I am holding my 3 year old toothbrush at ang new improved toothbrush na I received last night. My 3 year old toothbrush is an indio at siya ang special someone ko, kahit yellowish na ang color niya I still used it for that longest moment. From the time it arrived in my life until yesterday. I felt comfort and tranquility.
My new toothbrush is mestizo. Made in U.S.A at buong buo ang mga bristles, improved at advanced kasi kaya tatagal siya ng 8 months pero sa akin tatagal ito ng 3 to 4 years depende sa aking pag gamit. Malambing ako kaya soft lang ang pag brush ko ng teeth.
“Tama ka mommy, I need to be mature at itinapon ko na rin ung toothbrush na inaaway mo.” Sabi ko.
Kasama ng mga kalat ng aking debut ay isinama ko na ang aking ex. I know I really made a decision.
Sa payatas, kung saan halos lahat ng basura ay itinatapon isang babaeng scavenger ang nakapulot sa toothbrush at doon nagsimula ang isang bagong story kumbaga; another legend will soon rise sa gitna naman ng mga basurang bumabalik sa atin kapag may baha.

therefore i am

"I THINK GREEN, ANIMO LASALLE"

sayang

"when a person is fond of asking question, it's an indication of being intelligent. he uses his mind, and practices his ability to learn but if a person never ask anything at all, he refuses knowledge, he ignores his life and misses the chance of knowing"

busog

"don't feed me with hate, i might choke."

vain not allowed

"if vanity kills, many will be dead now, many will die. if vanity heals, only few will be cured, a lot will still be ill, if vanity rules, all people may not be able to follow, many will still be simple, if vanity exists, where will i be?"

epidemya

"my writing is like an epidemic disease, the origin is unknown, it is also unnamed, but it swallows my system slowly. i almost forgot how to write, all i can remember is that when you write, its must come from within, it could be from your agony or from your most blissful memory. it is always fun to write, it is a way to release temper, pressure, and power. a good friend from the states reminded me the essence of writing. i refused to mention his name, for he may want to remain a mystery like the letters, the words, and sentences we create. it is true that mystery comes after when you finish writing, sometimes you would not remember how did you started, your mind will try to recall but the silence of your writing will prevail. writing isn't my first love, i just learned how to appreciate it and eventually fell from it. write all you can , write when you can after all to write is a right. again, my writing is like an epidemic disease, it spreads but it inspires."